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或许感情路上并没有错与对，只有爱与不爱。

爱与恨就只在一线之差。

爱一个人越深，被伤害的也越深。然而，就在一夜瞬间，爱也在那一刻，转换成恨。。

为何那份爱可以那么深，却又能在一瞬间都消失了？

我想这辈子，如果再也不爱，就在也不会受尽去恨一个人的痛了。。。

再一个月，中秋节就到了。

回想那一天，你我二人，在月圆之夜，一边漫步，一边聊着。望着天空，突然看到了天灯飘过，我默默许了个愿，我希望这辈子都能与你分享我的快乐与悲伤，只要有你在我身旁，我再也不会孤单。

因为和你提起喜欢吃月饼，却没能吃到，你从车后拿出了一盒月饼。你傻傻的说，不懂得做出任何浪漫的举动，但如果是我想要的，你都会尽你所能去达成，因为你想看到我快乐。虽然觉得有一些些的好笑，但当月饼吃进口中，那一刻是甜的。



短短的11个月已过，但为何如今的你变了？那个傻傻的你消失了，那个想要我快乐的你不在了吗？为何如今的你，不管我说什么都是针对，而不是在紧张着婚礼的筹备。为何如今的你舍得让我哭泣，让我孤孤单单的一个人悲伤？

我认识了一个男生，那一个刻，他是那么的阳光，他那灿烂的笑容是如此的让我感觉到温暖。
他相信在那个坚强后面的我，有个渴望受保护的另一个我。在我最无助，最落魄的时候，他伸出双手告诉我，他会一直在我身边，呵护我，保护我。他告诉我，在这个旅程，他会一直的陪我走下去。如果前面一片灰暗，他会牵着我的手，慢慢的一起走。如果步伐太快，他会慢下来等我跟上。

日子一天一天的过，不管如何，他都会陪着我，他让我觉得生活不管是多么坎坷，都有他陪着我。他总会在我失落的时候，给我个拥抱，在我泪流的时刻，擦干我的眼泪。

不知是老天戏弄我，还是考验我，前面的路并没转好，反而是更多障碍，而我并没更坚强，反而是更落魄。我终于承受不了而崩溃了。我做出伤害自己的举动，也气痛了他。他完全不理我，让我感到害怕，不知所措。过了几天后，我终于忍不住了，主动的先找他。他让我知道，不管什么情形之下，我能发脾气，能骂他，却不能那么愚蠢的去伤害自己。

可这一切的一切是真的吗？我渐渐的感受不到他的温柔，他的那一份爱。他疏远我了吗？

因不敢霸去他的空间，我给自己找节目。
因不想在他面前板个脸，我选择把自己的哀愁压抑着。
因不要自己的泪在他面前落而让他感到反感，我把眼泪望心里吞。
因不能为他再添上任何烦恼，我自己的困扰，我自己去扛。

这一切的一切，他都看到了吗？

不，他一点都不知道。他让我认为做了再多也没用，让我觉得自己很没用。

他认为一直在变的人是我。可我变坏了吗？我只是一心照着他的要求而去更改的呀。

为何生气而说了他几句，会变成了指责？
为何答应我，不会不理我太久，却又做不到，而让我感到我一直都是一个人？
为何当初对我的承诺，都一个一个地消失了？

还是当初你说过的那一句话：“不可以相信男人”，已开始实现了？

他已不爱我了吗？

Was talking to Sharon about what happened on Sunday where our parents sat over the food tasting dinner and discuss about the 过大礼, and I suddenly got upset, cause reminded mom many times whatever gifts that in-laws will be sending over, must be in even digits, but end up she asked in odd digits again, this wasnt about superstitions but every little thing has a meaning behind it. Even digits reason being all couple come in pairs, which is an even digit, a whole perfect suckling pig because it represents that hubby is pleased with the bride received, but ended up no suckling pig.

As I talked, I remembered GJ did not pass me his dad's name in chinese and had to chase him for it, and I became more upset, and he started pointing fingers at me again for not helping. I was like, why it seems like this whole wedding, I'm the one who has to research, plan, DIY some stuff, and yet I also must carry out actions, it was like this is my wedding, and not our wedding. Ended up crying to Sharon, and she was like consoling me. Was pretty touched by her concern, and made me think back what it was like back then like 6yrs ago. We were send to Japan to work, and she would be my roomie, and her thought of rooming with me really irks her, because back in Kriston, we never did talk to each other much. After which, Meng also roomed with us, which became worse, as they were those who were very blunt to a sense it was very sarcastic. But from fighting, to bitching about each other, to bitch about others every other night, lying down next to each other, till we laughed every other night, we ended up being good friends, and now we meet up occasionally, bitch about anything, and of cause be there for each other. Yes I'm still upset, but 105ers, love you guys to the max.

Another task done. Finally chosen our invitation card. Surprisingly, 1 flip through the collections, I chose 1 design straight, some of the couple next to us was like shortlisting a few, discuss, think and can't decide, but us, zoom down to 1 design in split minutes. It seems like we can chose what we like straight from our heart, rather than using the brain, I guess that's us, choosing everything through heart, which makes us decide very fast without 2nd thoughts, just like how we decide to get marry, when we bearly got together for a month.

The cartoon that we decide for the card was split seconds fast, the lady showed us the latest design page, and immediately he say one with golf carrying couple, well, we're having our wedding at a golf club, so yeah.

I also finally understand why some cards I received last time had inserts and some are printed straight on the card, because hot-stamping on the card is double the price! We ended up paying more as for inserts, we've to paste every piece on the card ourselves, so to save the time, we pay more.

Right now only waiting for the 7th month to be over, before he can paint up the room with a romantic allure colour, and I can start buying my dowry.

Yippee, just collected the wedding bands at Clarity last night, our very own design. Mine with 2 rows of diamonds, and his, cause he dont like dimond, is a glossy curve. Am so loving it more than my proposal ring.. oops..

日子一天一天的接近，心情也慢慢的跟着沉重，想你的次序也多了许多。。

突然之间，脑子告诉自己，这一生最爱的人未必是你这一生的伴侣。。

虽然如此，我仍相信自己的选择是真确的。。。

Hey guys, pls take note that I've migrate my blog to http://yoshimiwen.com/

So do bookmark the new site, if you'd like to stay tune to my updates. Thanks

或许感情路上并没有错与对，只有爱与不爱。

爱与恨就只在一线之差。

爱一个人越深，被伤害的也越深。然而，就在一夜瞬间，爱也在那一刻，转换成恨。。

为何那份爱可以那么深，却又能在一瞬间都消失了？

我想这辈子，如果再也不爱，就在也不会受尽去恨一个人的痛了。。。

再一个月，中秋节就到了。

回想那一天，你我二人，在月圆之夜，一边漫步，一边聊着。望着天空，突然看到了天灯飘过，我默默许了个愿，我希望这辈子都能与你分享我的快乐与悲伤，只要有你在我身旁，我再也不会孤单。

因为和你提起喜欢吃月饼，却没能吃到，你从车后拿出了一盒月饼。你傻傻的说，不懂得做出任何浪漫的举动，但如果是我想要的，你都会尽你所能去达成，因为你想看到我快乐。虽然觉得有一些些的好笑，但当月饼吃进口中，那一刻是甜的。



短短的11个月已过，但为何如今的你变了？那个傻傻的你消失了，那个想要我快乐的你不在了吗？为何如今的你，不管我说什么都是针对，而不是在紧张着婚礼的筹备。为何如今的你舍得让我哭泣，让我孤孤单单的一个人悲伤？

我认识了一个男生，那一个刻，他是那么的阳光，他那灿烂的笑容是如此的让我感觉到温暖。
他相信在那个坚强后面的我，有个渴望受保护的另一个我。在我最无助，最落魄的时候，他伸出双手告诉我，他会一直在我身边，呵护我，保护我。他告诉我，在这个旅程，他会一直的陪我走下去。如果前面一片灰暗，他会牵着我的手，慢慢的一起走。如果步伐太快，他会慢下来等我跟上。

日子一天一天的过，不管如何，他都会陪着我，他让我觉得生活不管是多么坎坷，都有他陪着我。他总会在我失落的时候，给我个拥抱，在我泪流的时刻，擦干我的眼泪。

不知是老天戏弄我，还是考验我，前面的路并没转好，反而是更多障碍，而我并没更坚强，反而是更落魄。我终于承受不了而崩溃了。我做出伤害自己的举动，也气痛了他。他完全不理我，让我感到害怕，不知所措。过了几天后，我终于忍不住了，主动的先找他。他让我知道，不管什么情形之下，我能发脾气，能骂他，却不能那么愚蠢的去伤害自己。

可这一切的一切是真的吗？我渐渐的感受不到他的温柔，他的那一份爱。他疏远我了吗？

因不敢霸去他的空间，我给自己找节目。
因不想在他面前板个脸，我选择把自己的哀愁压抑着。
因不要自己的泪在他面前落而让他感到反感，我把眼泪望心里吞。
因不能为他再添上任何烦恼，我自己的困扰，我自己去扛。

这一切的一切，他都看到了吗？

不，他一点都不知道。他让我认为做了再多也没用，让我觉得自己很没用。

他认为一直在变的人是我。可我变坏了吗？我只是一心照着他的要求而去更改的呀。

为何生气而说了他几句，会变成了指责？
为何答应我，不会不理我太久，却又做不到，而让我感到我一直都是一个人？
为何当初对我的承诺，都一个一个地消失了？

还是当初你说过的那一句话：“不可以相信男人”，已开始实现了？

他已不爱我了吗？

Was talking to Sharon about what happened on Sunday where our parents sat over the food tasting dinner and discuss about the 过大礼, and I suddenly got upset, cause reminded mom many times whatever gifts that in-laws will be sending over, must be in even digits, but end up she asked in odd digits again, this wasnt about superstitions but every little thing has a meaning behind it. Even digits reason being all couple come in pairs, which is an even digit, a whole perfect suckling pig because it represents that hubby is pleased with the bride received, but ended up no suckling pig.

As I talked, I remembered GJ did not pass me his dad's name in chinese and had to chase him for it, and I became more upset, and he started pointing fingers at me again for not helping. I was like, why it seems like this whole wedding, I'm the one who has to research, plan, DIY some stuff, and yet I also must carry out actions, it was like this is my wedding, and not our wedding. Ended up crying to Sharon, and she was like consoling me. Was pretty touched by her concern, and made me think back what it was like back then like 6yrs ago. We were send to Japan to work, and she would be my roomie, and her thought of rooming with me really irks her, because back in Kriston, we never did talk to each other much. After which, Meng also roomed with us, which became worse, as they were those who were very blunt to a sense it was very sarcastic. But from fighting, to bitching about each other, to bitch about others every other night, lying down next to each other, till we laughed every other night, we ended up being good friends, and now we meet up occasionally, bitch about anything, and of cause be there for each other. Yes I'm still upset, but 105ers, love you guys to the max.

Another task done. Finally chosen our invitation card. Surprisingly, 1 flip through the collections, I chose 1 design straight, some of the couple next to us was like shortlisting a few, discuss, think and can't decide, but us, zoom down to 1 design in split minutes. It seems like we can chose what we like straight from our heart, rather than using the brain, I guess that's us, choosing everything through heart, which makes us decide very fast without 2nd thoughts, just like how we decide to get marry, when we bearly got together for a month.

The cartoon that we decide for the card was split seconds fast, the lady showed us the latest design page, and immediately he say one with golf carrying couple, well, we're having our wedding at a golf club, so yeah.

I also finally understand why some cards I received last time had inserts and some are printed straight on the card, because hot-stamping on the card is double the price! We ended up paying more as for inserts, we've to paste every piece on the card ourselves, so to save the time, we pay more.

Right now only waiting for the 7th month to be over, before he can paint up the room with a romantic allure colour, and I can start buying my dowry.

Yippee, just collected the wedding bands at Clarity last night, our very own design. Mine with 2 rows of diamonds, and his, cause he dont like dimond, is a glossy curve. Am so loving it more than my proposal ring.. oops..

日子一天一天的接近，心情也慢慢的跟着沉重，想你的次序也多了许多。。

突然之间，脑子告诉自己，这一生最爱的人未必是你这一生的伴侣。。

虽然如此，我仍相信自己的选择是真确的。。。